1. 8 months ago 

   she writes!

   It’s a discovery of eternity when the unshakable fear leaves the face of your enemy. She’s waited for you forever to understand her, and let her tell you the secret she’s been trying to tell you through lifetimes of misfortune and misconduct. You never grew up with the fear. You grew up with the anger, the fear was given to her. She has cried in anguish at the apparent dislocation of her heart. She came to you in a dream when you were little, trying to scare you, trying to tell you that it’s not okay to go commando when you play on the monkey bars every day. You didn’t listen. She tried to tell you it was not okay to yell at the little kids, even though you were so little yourself. You were never scared, you were just so angry. And this is okay, she says. She says it’s okay because you were so scared before. Before you woke up in this new dream where nothing was to be feared, you stayed in empty rooms, rocking back and forth, and trying to fight all of the darkness. You gave it away in the last moments, you gave it away but you did not accept it. You gave it to her in the transition of your candlelight. In the transition of your soul, passing beautiful trees and countless streetlights, and people making love in the light, and you dancing so effortlessly through the clouds with your heart. Your body did not understand the dance or the framework from which you could see a dance. It only understood darkness. She’s here to help you remember where you came from. All of the anger that has manifested in screaming, in fighting, in “standing up for yourself,” in beating the mirror, in devouring cake and crying, in yelling at everybody that the world is not okay..that it is strange and manipulative, and worked over by drugs that make your fingertips unaware of the touch. She’s here to help you fight through the anger, let it come out. She wants you to fight her, for she’s so afraid. You have the anger to break her fear, and the exchange is yourself accepting yourself. And when you fight your own fire with love, nothing stands a chance. She will disappear in the fire that she created and turn into a yellow butterfly with wings spread over just another inch past what you think you know. And these wings are transparent, and these wings will help you see that you are no longer angry, but that you have more yellow butterflies to create..and this is exciting. This is so exciting, for nothing will ever be the same and she will thank you. And your feet thank you for delivering the dance of the soul and allowing your tiny vessel of light to turn on the darkness that has welled up inside your global world. And when the world is full of yellow butterflies, there is nowhere to go but up and around and Become. The theme here is not to hate your anger and not to hate your fear, but accept it, look it in the eyes, and just listen to it..because the answer is everywhere. The answer is everywhere because it is in your heart…and it’s in the words of your mother and your best friend and the angry man who shouts at you every day and the homeless man who tries to tell you a joke or doesn’t. There souls are painted with the vibrations of your goodness. The most beautiful part is that you are the paintbrush with the constant urge to paint the world..and you can. And you should! And this is what is truly beautiful.

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